emoness...and self injury

ah ha!
since preston is busy being sad, i did some research.
because i didnt want to study
(heehee)
ima fail anyways, so im not going to put much effort in.
till tmr.
haha.
of all the ppl, if u just looked at reactions, i would think min joo cuts.
obvio she doesnt,
but she always wears long sleeves and continuously gets into accidents.
plus she changes the reason for getting cuts/scrapes constantly.
but no, shes just clumsy sometimes
XD
poor min joo.
but then there are ppl who are perpetually unhappy.
or, at least only surface-level happy
unfortunately, i have no idea what i am talking about, as i am only able to experience one emotion at a time
(due to my lack of multitasking skills)
and so i cant really know whats happening inside the lumps of brain tissue.
not that i would really want to
(lol)
keep in mind that people learn from other people, and are changed by the people around them
the more time you spend with a person, the more you end up like them.
or, at least, molded (personality-wise) to them
not as in, two ppl become alike...
but as in two (or more) people can think like each other, while retaining a slightly changed form of their own-ness
did that make any sense?
im getting off topic again
anyways,
people who are not-happy will generally be surrounded by not-happy people
or, the idea would be that not-happy people will imprint not-happy thought upon the more-happy people around them
unless the more-happy people turn the not-happy person/people in more-happy people,
then all the people would be more-happy.
if all the people were more-happy then everything would be good, right?
or, if slowly the more-happy people became less-happy and then not-happy, everything would be good too but everyone would be not-happy, making it not good.
that is, in my POV
but not-happy people are not-happy with their position and their not-happiness.
then again, not-happy people appear to feel unable to be more-happy and therefore they will never be more-happy and will remain in their not-happy state until the end of time.
okay, not really, but to them, it appears that way
and from this, not-happy people try to escape the not-happy feelings, not through associating with more-happy and very-happy ideas/people/objects but by injuring themselves
though i am unable to understand why not-happy people injure themselves to become what they feel is more-happy, i can try to explain what i think is the reason for not-happy people to hurt themselves.
not-happy people feel not-happy oftentimes because they think everything is a poop.
many people have poops for lives, but sometimes lives are extra poop filled, and force a person so become not-happy.
the not-happy people think that if they could controlll---
will post more.
g2 play piano.
:D
okay, ima back.
for 3 min, at least
(hahahaha)
i really do need to get to studying and all that.
i must remember everything by tommorow.
how hopeless that seems.
and math was a butt.
-sigh-
i want to do something fun for halloween.
(i know this is off topic, but im not in the mood to analyze depression, okay?)
i bought wings at confetti junction!
now i will jump off a cliff!!!!
(and try to fly but fail and be squashed by gravity)
pitiful.
lollll.
heeheeheee.
life is being good.
aggressiveness isnt as hard as i thought.
i will be blunt.
and straightforward.
no more games.
yay for me.
hee.
hee.
hee.
yahuh.
and i do not know anything.
only that anita feels sad, and david isnt really talking to her.
and james keeps on...apologizing to her.
(and flirting with pei, which is very out-of-character)
therefore, i will pat anita on the head and go on a 3 month vacation.
isnt that nice of me?
lol.
life is sickening.
not for me though, (not particularily at least)
i have mental problems.
gleb was sticking his cell phone down his pants today.
i decided to stare at the back of davis' head.
not very interesting.
least it wasnt filled with dandruff.
that would have been nasty too.
ajay has hairy arms.
it is strange the things you notice when ur head is falling off.
right, and this was during spanish after the review test which i nearly failed because i forgot how to say the word "room".
no kidding.
i can say house "casa" bedroom "dormitorio" kitchen "cocina" garage "garaje"
etc.
but not the simple word "room"
or "floor"
-.-
that made things...
difficult.
so instead i made up a lump of msg about how i liked to fish with my friends.
though being buddhist, i dont fish.
hahahaha.
hey, she said it was okay if we lied.
^ ^
:P
heeheehee.
im screwed.
time to study.
i'll post more (onto this one) later.
ima make a uber long post!
back to analyzing depression when i return.
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